I will be phasing out my one on one sessions over the remainder of this year, which means I only have limited spots for individual sessions.
Instead I offer group coaching in the Gangsta Goddesses Tribe, through my online program, The Align to Your Divine Plan Twin Flame Mastery Program.
If you need the support of a healer in a one on one session, I have compiled a list of recommended healers for you to work with, to support you on your journey. All the healers I recommend, I have worked with personally on my own Twin Flame journey.
You can also work with many of these healers and myself in person on our India Goddess Revival Retreats in January & February 2019.
Coming full circle on the Twin Flame journey
For months now the reoccurring pattern in my personal healing sessions and in life in general is coming full circle. It really wasn’t a question of just one aspect coming full circle.
No, what I am witnessing in my current reality experience is a perpetual closing off of old cycles from a new perspective, a higher understanding and total forgiveness.
This particular article, is about one of the bigger moments of coming full circle on my Twin Flame journey.
I think the best way to describe what coming full circle feels like, is that you now have complete understanding why everything had to be the way it was and that it has all been leading up to this ONE thing, no not physical union with your twin – but you waking up to your true self.
This understanding of why everything had to be the way it was, of course transcends far beyond the Twin Flame connection and journey, it encompasses all your life experiences up till now and even goes back in time throughout your complete soul’s journey since you split from Source.
If you still believe this connection is about a romantic outcome, download the free Gangsta Goddesses Manifesto to find out why meeting your Twin Flame is meant to be so much more than just another ‘Boy meets girl’ love story.
Now you might belief you are already ‘woke’ and you know who you are at a Soul level, but chances are that you are still programmed with a lot of false beliefs about yourself that are clouding your perception of yourself. In fact our most traumatic and painful experiences in life, the ones we find the hardest to forgive ‘done to us’ by friends, family, lovers or sometimes even strangers have served to trigger these false beliefs – in order to help us remember our true Soul self.
Coming ‘full circle‘ also means seeing these reflected false beliefs about yourself being mirrored back to you as disowned and repressed parts of yourself that you found too painful to love. False identities you have clung too, out of fear, shame, guilt and disgust with yourself which were never true to begin with. It’s learning to let go of these false identification, that you were not even consciously aware of believing about yourself that brings you back to true self love.
It is when we can let go of ALL we (even subconsciously) thought we are, that we can finally start to see the truth, after removing layer after layer of filters that obscured the very thing we were looking at. At this moment that I am writing this I’m on the verge of starting to be able to see clearly after removing layers and layers of false identification of who others have told me I was in their eyes – only to understand that their view reflected my own false beliefs and mis-perceptions of myself.
Again I am not talking about one specific insight, belief or situation, I am talking about all of them throughout this complete lifetime and beyond.
Coming full circle means there is not one piece of the puzzle missing anymore and you can see the full picture. This leaves you with not one person in your life that you resent, hate or despise because you have clearly seen that even their most difficult behavior was not only meant to bring you where you are now here today, but you also realize it could not have gone any other way.
Believing this to be true and seeing (knowing) this to be true, are two different things and only the latter will give you that sense of coming complete full circle with this situation/person which allows you the peace to let it leave your life completely.
Coming full circle is the best cord cutting ritual that exists, because it fully releases you from the energetic bind you were in with the person(s)/situation. This resets the connection to be what it is meant to be – which is always based on mutual supporting unconditional love.
To give you one more idea of what coming full circle feels like, you will recognize it when you can clearly see why someone came into your life, the true gift they were there to gift you and you feel at peace with them and the situation.
One of the many full circle moments on my Twin Flame journey was when I found out my twin’s wife in this lifetime, had been my identical twin sister in a previous lifetime and had tried to take my place by pretending to be me, so my Twin Flame would marry her. He fell for it and married her, but he never loved her the way she hoped he would.
Finding out about this past life, made me understand my Twin Flame’s behavior towards me in our current lifetime so much better. It also showed me why this marriage had been beneficial to both my twin and my own healing and had needed to take place, despite the fact that my twin again could not get himself to love her in the way he loves me.
Our Twin Flame theme
From the beginning of our continued journey in this lifetime I have known that our theme is ‘trusting the Universe’ something I wasn’t very good at and I doubt my twin was either….
I have always said that my Twin Flame has been my final exam in trusting the Universe.
Which brings us to another full circle moment, where I am currently at in my life and this makes me think of one of the most beautiful quotes from the book The Alchemist, by Paulo Coelho:
Before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream. That’s the point at which most people give up. It’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.”
In one month I leave on a for now one year trip around the world, where I will visit many of the places where I have past life karma. Places like Glastonbury (UK), Florence (Italy), Cairo, Luxor and Aswan (Egypt) just to name a few. Probably except for Ibiza and a couple of places in the United States I have never been to most of the cities or countries I will be visiting.
When I met my twin I had fear of flying, fear of travelling alone and fear of new places – all side-effects of a teenage trauma that had left me feeling unsafe outside my normal environment.
In order to get to see my twin in real life, I had to overcome all three of them as I had to get on an eight hour flight, all by myself to go to India where I had never been before. The only thing that got me on that plane was my twin and the fact that I had to know the truth – was this what we felt for each other real or just a romantic fantasy?
I faced my fears and spent the first two days crying puddles and vomiting left and right, which seemed to be the standard physiological reaction to new places and travelling. But facing my fears wasn’t enough to heal it, because traveling to London had the same effect on me almost a year later. I was vomiting left and right and it took me some time to feel safe in the new environment.
Then we went to Ibiza and these were all family trips, I wasn’t travelling alone and again a night of puking and sobbing and feeling like sh*t, until I decided to do something about it.
I tried different healing modalities and the first two helped me do many things, but it didn’t address this issue. Then a friend I knew a couple years ago, comes back into my life and tells me about this hypnotherapist that actually just lives on the other side of this little forest that is next to my house.
Through hypnotherapy and my regular sessions with Ellen (both are listed on the recommended healer page) I get to the bottom of the core wounds that are causing all these issues and by the time we flew to Ibiza for the 2018 retreat I was vomit free, no crying puddles or any issue.
For the first time since forever (well actually since I was 15) I could travel like a normal person and enjoy my trip from the get-go. I didn’t need 1 to 2 days to be able to function normally.
If you are a regular reader you might wonder what about the meltdown in New York? But New York wasn’t new to me, I had been there before. New York was all about releasing the trapped emotions, the immense feelings of unsafety that had caused the trauma to begin with and that I had repressed because I had, had no way to cope with them as this young girl.
New York was in fact the last place I had been a care-free teenager, before everything went south and travel and foreign places would suddenly start to freak me out. My family has always been avid travelers and I had already been through half of Europe and the US by the time I was 15. I used to love to travel as a kid and It was as if I had to go back to New York, not to retrieve a part of my soul but a lost aspect of my inner child – the one who knows how to have fun and enjoy life.
In short you can imagine that for me to be going on a world tour, is really coming full circle on my Twin Flame journey seeing that it was one of my biggest wounds coming into this journey and lifetime. Of course the teenage trauma was heavily linked to a previous lifetime, where the core wound around being ‘safe in the Universe’ originated from and that needed to be triggered through an event in this lifetime to help me bring it in my conscious awareness.
Something I see in my own life and in the clients I work with, that your current life drama doesn’t just appear out of nowhere. It is a carefully planned process by the soul and all the people involved to trigger the wounding from previous lifetimes that still needs to be resolved.
Living the Universe Always has My Back
The quote from the Alchemist that I shared above applies even deeper here, because this trip around the world leaves me no choice but to live in the faith that the Universe always has my back.
I am again called to take a leap in faith…
This trip is where the Soul of the World tests everything that I have learned along the way. Remember, it does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream.
Moving towards my dream of being together with Ashu (my twin) as husband and wife, taught me that it is safe to trust the Universe again (something that I had stopped believing lifetimes and lifetimes ago).
Now it’s time to prove that trust in the Universe, not only by going – but by the circumstances that I am going under (Yep, I packed my the Universe has My Back T-shirt to wear on my journey).
You see I don’t have a large sum of money in the bank to fall back on. I don’t have a fixed income outside Gangsta Goddesses and obviously I do not have a partner’s income to cover expenses.
There is no safety net, only the faith in the Universe that it will support me every step of the way.
Even the cheapest Airbnbs are three times what I pay for rent now, so life is about to get much more expensive than it has been – which is fine, this is my next step. I have to do this.
But this is also why Paulo Coelho writes:
‘That’s the point at which most people give up. It’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.’
Many people don’t ride it out, because they lose hope of getting what they want. So they give up on their dreams and never live their personal legend, which of course is a big theme in the story of The Alchemist.
This physical journey that I am embarking on also represents. living in the new 5D consciousness and fully releasing the old 3D reality programming that says safety is found in having a house, money in the bank, etc. etc.
At the same time living the 5D concepts of unlimited abundance, the Universe has your back, everything is always happening for our highest good and so on, instead of having these be lofty yet unattainable spiritual ideas we only hope to be true.
Am I nervous about this upcoming adventure?
H*ll Yes! This is way out of my comfort zone, but I am super excited at the same time because even though I currently do not have Ashu’s ring on my finger or his bun in my oven as I had so hoped for when I started out on my Twin Flame journey – I think I got something even better, at least for this moment.
And that is being able or maybe more accurately being willing to trust the Universe again and to feel safe inside of myself no matter where I am in the world. My upcoming nomad journey across the planet including India where we will host two Goddess Revival retreats, is the Soul of the World testing to see – if through my aligning to my happily ever after with the man of my dreams, I really have learned to trust the Universe which was one of the main lesson’s that walking the Twin Flame journey has taught me.
Which brings me to another full circle moment, in August 2016 I wrote in a blog article about Asking and getting signs from the Universe:
‘The Universe really knocked itself out in our case that week. I always fast on Mondays and like to stay home then, but my mom asked me to drive her to a shop.
As I pulled up in the parking lot, there was this big mobile home parked there with in large text the word ROCKWOOD on it, which is the name of the school that my twin went to and had recently updated on his Facebook profile.
Not only that, I had been contemplating what I wanted to do with my life now that my dream of my twin as my husband and a baby together had gone up in smoke and I had decided I wanted to go traveling through Europe with my youngest and my mom.
Even though I had not envisioned myself traveling in a mobile home, I couldn’t help but wonder if the Universe was quietly hinting that my twin should be part of this new plan.
When I was ready to really cut all ties and move on, I got three signs in a row – all related to Facebook on Saturday, Sunday and Monday regarding my twin – which honestly only confused me more.
Is it over or did this mean he would be coming back?‘
And here I am embarking on that trip and the first place I will go to is Glastonbury where I will receive a high priestess initiation during the end of July eclipse and 8/8 Lion’s gate….
I just reread the last part of the article that this excerpt is from. Wouldn’t it be hilarious that everything that I was shown then, is coming to pass now?!
That I needed these two years to clear everything that was still in the way of me embodying who I truly am (which certainly has been the case) and that he (my twin) has been patiently waiting for me to embody my priestess energy again, which I already knew then I had to do on my own. I couldn’t do it with him by my side.
That will be taking coming full circle to a whole new level!
Rereading what I wrote back then makes me laugh at myself, because the massive healing I felt I had done at the time was only the tip of the iceberg, compared to everything that came after it. I was also still so attached to a romantic outcome, it makes me cringe to remember how focused I was on ‘union’ back then believing it was the highest possible outcome of this journey – little did I know that this journey would turn out to have much bigger rewards.
But at the same time, rereading it – shows me how far I have come in trusting the Universe. It was back then that I committed to this path and trusting the Universe – when I wasn’t sure I could.
They were my baby steps in having faith and looking how I am running with it now….
I pray that sharing my ‘full circle’ moments and my Twin Flame journey inspire you to keep going on your journey. Yep, it totally seems to s*ck that romance is not the main course on the Twin Flame menu, but I don’t know about you but I think what it HAS brought me is pretty b*tchin as well and I am eternally grateful to my twin and all the other players in my physical life reality and beyond for helping me come to where I am in my life now.
I wish you such beautiful full circle moments too…. and the union you dream of.
I know for me that the taste of union will only be sweeter because of who I have now become, whether that takes place with my Twin Flame or someone better – I will always be a higher version of me and have so much more to offer as a partner to my lover, because of the journey I walked with my twin.
Wishing you magic and miracles on this amazing adventure with your beloved.
If this article resonates with you please share it abundantly. Thank you.
Lots of love,
P.s. if you are interested in a step by step guide to your Twin Flame journey and creating inner union, sign up for the Gangsta Goddesses Tribe and you get instant access to my online program the Align to Your Divine Plan Twin Flame Mastery Program.