How do you ask the Universe something?
As I already explained in my article in How to set up your own private Q&A with the Universe, my personal favorite way to ask the Universe or God anything is to write it down. Actually I send an email addressed to the Universe – to myself. So I fill in the subject line and the body as if I am emailing to God, but as God or the Universe doesn’t have a digital inbox I send it to my own inbox and keep it in a special folder until I get my answer.
I can get powerful answers when I ask for a clear and definite sign without writing it down, but sometimes I can also be completely oblivious to the answers that seem to elude me if I am not totally feeling the urgency of an answer. If I feel a desperate urgency around the answer, this technique will work for me. If I don’t feel this urgency, this immense push of energy…. I don’t seem to get my answer or maybe I just don’t see it.
That’s why I keep writing an email to the Universe for the BIGGIES. I used it for example after I came back from India, when my Twin Flame without a warning or explanation told me to move on and that he just wanted to be left alone, when only one and a half month before we were talking about a future together.
So I asked for a clear and definite sign that we were still in the Twin Flame reunion process and to show me clearly what was my next step if this was the case.
The next day I got a very dramatic answer in my inbox. I received a TUT message, a note from the Universe that pretty much said:
Listen up babe, while you are down there waiting for us to give you a sign… We are up here waiting for you to make up your freaking mind and commit to it!
It ended with LET THIS BE YOUR SIGN.
On the one hand I was ready to walk. I had so f*cking had it with my twin’s Jekyll and Hyde act and even though I was frustrated with him like anything… still I wanted nothing more than to be together with him, which made NO SENSE AT ALL. I chewed on the email message for about an hour and then it hit me, that just like my twin didn’t dare to trust his own judgment and choose for us and what his heart was telling him – I didn’t dare trust my own judgment either.
This was my next step, I needed to trust my own judgment – which in the end led me to starting Gangsta Goddesses and everything that came along with it.
So I made up my freaking mind to trust my own judgment no matter what and I committed to it.
Then the Universe asked me, are you damn sure babe?
Because only two weeks after my commitment to follow my own judgment my twin texts me that he doesn’t love me and that if I had paid attention, he hadn’t needed to spell it out for me. It was BS, him running like hell. I knew with every fiber in my body that he loved me. I had felt his love. I had seen it in his eyes.
So I answered back to the Universe:
Yes, I am damn sure! I WILL continue to trust my own judgment. I will not be fooled by outer circumstances and only trust on my inner knowing.
My commitment to trusting my own judgment led me straight into living my soul purpose and discovering my unique gift to the world.
Asking for a specific sign
My favorite way of asking for a sign, is asking for a specific symbol. So back in 2015 before I went to India, before I even knew I was going to go there I asked for many signs.
But it all started with the gold Ohm sign.
I asked the Universe to show me a GOLD OHM sign if my twin and I were meant to be and I quickly got my sign. Not only that, three days later my twin sent me the sweetest email trying to explain his then constant running away from me and after that we had a 5 hour Whatsapp conversation in which he for the first time since he started running described how he wanted to make love to me.
He ran again two weeks later and I didn’t speak to him until we were together in India.
Since I have shared my sign with my followers, as soon as they see a gold ohm sign they think of me. Often they tag me in pics on Facebook, or take pics for me or even send me a gold ohm sign as gift.
When my twin in India confessed to me that he had been seeing someone else in the months since we last talked, the very next day while I was visiting a Sai Baba temple near the hotel on one of our morning walks with my team, I saw my very first gold ohm sign in India. I had seen hundred of ohm signs since I arrived two weeks before, but no gold ones. That morning as I was processing what my twin had told me the night before, it was as if the Universe wanted to let me know – Just let it go, you two are meant to be.
Now recently on a Sunday morning as I was wrapping things up between my twin and I, I even threw out a picture of the two of us that had been by my bed (and in a desk drawer a lot too) for the past six months. Almost immediately after the picture of us went in the trash, a Facebook friend posted yet another picture of a gold ohm sign on my timeline that she had taken earlier that week.
She had seen it and thought of me, she is also highly sensitive and felt she HAD to take a picture of it. She posted the picture literally minutes after our nightstand/desk drawer pic landed in the trash bin, despite the fact that it had been in her camera for days.
Can you really trust these signs?
Of course I asked myself this! Human nature right? Pfff. So I asked signs to confirm signs, can you believe it? I got all of them. The Universe was ever patient with me as I was learning to trust this new phenomena.
God, I don’t remember exactly what I asked every time, but I remember I asked like three times confirmation to all the the signs I had asked and gotten. In the end I even asked a sign to confirm if all previous signs were true.
Like, are you damn sure Universe or are you only playing with me?
You know how much I want this.
The Universe kept saying, yes babe I am damn sure. Go for it.
In the mean time my reality was like a reversed Universe of the signs I was getting. My twin refused to talk to me. He knew I was coming to India and still he was like if I stick my head in the sand long enough, this will all just blow over and I won’t have to deal with it. Maybe he was even hoping that if he gave me the silent treatment long enough I would just cut my loses and cancel the trip.
The guy was scared to death.
And so was I, but I said to myself: ‘Come on, you asked for all these signs. You got them, now just take a leap of faith and trust them.‘ During that time I had kept sharing with him. Every sign I got I shared. The feelings I went through I shared and he read everything, but didn’t reply.
If my twin ever reads this, he is probably going to hate me for saying this, but this same guy that was so distant before I came, followed me around like a puppy the whole week we were together in the village. I could hardly turn around or he was there, taking care of me, calling me by his side or keeping me safe no matter how far we were standing away from each other. It didn’t matter what he was doing or who he was talking to, one eye was always focused on me.
Just as the signs had promised me.
Is the Universe trying to tell me something?
Then there are also random signs that are just too weird to ignore. So in March 2015 during a meditation I felt a baby soul around me, who wanted to be born as my child but asked me to PLEASE stop eating meat cause it disgusted him. I have never been a big meat eater, I have always been more veg, but stubborn as I was before I was going to heed to such weird requests that seemed so out there – I tried to eat meat after that and I would get sick.
So, guess what?
I decided to stop eating meat and I started taking this baby that I was feeling pre-conception, seriously.
End of April 2015 I really reached a point that I had, had it with my twin and ready to let go. Begin April his family had badgered him for five hours trying everything they could think of to have him say yes to the arranged marriage they wanted for him and he refused. The next morning out of nowhere he tells me as we were joking around, that he refused them but no matter what I tried he refused to tell me what it meant for him and me.
He was in no way ready to commit and soon after that he was back to running again. So after a month of yes-no, start-stop and a lot of playing hide and seek. I was done. So I told him this and removed his number and the Viber app which we often used to talk, off my phone.
I had a long drive ahead of me because I was out at an event. When I came home I had to go to the shop to get some last ingredients for dinner. As I am doing my groceries I bump into my male midwife, who I had not seen in seven years since the birth and death of my youngest daughter. We had birthed the baby together and thirteen days later, as she was ready to leave the physical plane he was holding me in his arms, while I was holding my daughter as she left her body – both of us praying for her safe return home.
He had broken off contact quickly after that for which he later apologized, so we hadn’t spoken to each other in all these years.. let alone bump into each other. It turned out that he had his own practice now, just around the corner from me and I had just recently wondered about finding a midwife close by – for the baby I felt was coming.
So I took it as a sign to go back and hang in there.
Apparently we were going to have this baby, what else could it mean?
Another couple of months of running followed together with him coming back listening to all this talk about the baby and opening up more and more about his true feelings for me. And then some more running again. When one morning I had again reached a point that I was ready to give up, it hurt too much (I was still trying to force romance so much).
I made the decision in the morning, took my family to the beach a half hours drive away and came back in the evening but got stuck in a two hour traffic jam. As I turn to drive into my neighborhood on a Sunday evening I have to stop for two men crossing the street. When they are both in front of my car, I recognize my male midwife who doesn’t even live in my neighborhood. He only works there.
So that was weird and I went back to my twin and hung in there again.
Three times is a charm, so recently on a Saturday night, the night before I threw out the nightstand picture of me and my twin I was unfriending and unfollowing mutual friends so I could really just do what he asked and what I now felt ready to do, to move on. As I was saying goodbye to a mutual friend no one less then the male midwife who I had spoken only once on Facebook since I returned from India, commented on an old post on my Facebook business page on a video about the five love languages by Gary Chapman.
He never EVER comments on my posts, ever!
Before I had every time taken it as a sign to go back. This time I said to the Universe:
Great, good luck with that if he wants to be with me, he needs to make a move. I have done enough. If this is meant to be YOU or him needs to make it happen. I am done moving heaven and earth to make this happen.
Twin Flames and signs
If you are in a Twin Flame relationship you will find signs often raining from the sky. It seems like the Universe is forever trying to move you two closer together, especially the further you try to create distance between each other.
It’s very common to see your twin’s name like everywhere or his initials. Signs that refer to you two, like in our case the gold ohm signs or other signs that make you immediately think of your twin.
Twin Flame signs often come in pairs of three, as if the Universe wants to show off how creatively synchronistic it can be.
The Universe really knocked itself out in our case that week. I always fast on Mondays and like to stay home then, but my mom asked me to drive her to a shop.
As I pulled up in the parking lot, there was this big mobile home parked there with in large text the word ROCKWOOD on it, which is the name of the school that my twin went to and that he had recently updated on his Facebook profile.
Not only that, I had been contemplating what I wanted to do with my life now that my dream of my twin as my husband and a baby together had gone up in smoke and I had decided I wanted to go traveling through Europe with my youngest and my mom.
Even though I had not envisioned myself traveling in a mobile home, I couldn’t help but wonder if the Universe was quietly hinting that my twin should be part of this new plan.
When I was ready to really cut all ties and move on, I got three signs in a row – all related to Facebook on Saturday, Sunday and Monday regarding my twin – which honestly only confused me more.
Is it over or did this mean he would be coming back?
Although I would love for that to happen, I had also reached a place that I was fine if it happens or not. These last eight months of separation have been such a blessing. I would have never have come where I am now, without him running out on me like he did.
I had recently also sent him a short message to tell him that I made it through okay and that he had helped me more, by not helping me at all.
Angel numbers as signs
In the end I let the signs mess with my head again and I went back to him.
It was his birthday that month and even though as long as I know him he has managed to ignore my birthday, it didn’t feel right to ignore his – although initially I did. So I called him the next day. I insisted a bit and then he picked up, our first call since the night I left India – eight months before and it just felt like no time had gone by at all.
We started talking and he of course wanted to know how I was doing now, because he knew I had gone through hell. He asked about my team that he had spent time with at the village in India, but I was calling mobile to mobile which was going to be a very expensive call. So I asked if we could call through internet, he said ‘Yes, of course we can call on Whatsapp or Viber if you have that installed.‘
I said ‘I will install it, but you have blocked me.‘
‘Oh yes.‘ he said ‘I am sorry about that. I’ll take care of it. I’ll be in WIFI area in 10 minutes, talk to you then.’
He did unblock me, but he didn’t call and refused to pick up when I called him. So after eight months of almost no contact we were back where we started, him allowing me to whisper in his ear and him reading everything (message read notification back on) but not responding and I was frustrated like hell. I felt I had gone through such a transformation. I thought I had healed so many blocks between us and cleared past life karma that was keeping us out of harmony and it felt like we had won, only an inch of progress.
It was nothing, compared to for example the results my clients were booking from just one session with me. That morning I spoke to a client who had been able to transform her relationship with her ex after a past life clean up in a Twin Flame Reunion Journey, they had been able to forgive each other, let go and continue as friends.
I felt me and my twin should have at least reached that level after all the healing work I had done, but here we were each still sitting at the other side of a door only opened to a small crack, through which I could whisper to my twin and hope to God he wouldn’t slam the door shut again.
I was so disappointed. I was so frustrated. I thought f*ck taking things slow and I just told him everything. I told him everything I had done to clear the energy that was keeping us out of Twin Flame union. He was either going to think I was crazy or he would understand me. I told him about our past lives. I told him about my frustration. I told him about the signs. I showed him the pictures. I told him about how my clients were getting the results that I had expected for us at the very least. I mean after eight months of almost no contact and all this energetic clearing work, how was it even possible that we were still at the same place we left off?
The ONLY positive I could see was that his weird behavior meant that he wasn’t over me yet either, cause otherwise he would have no problem talking to me. There was always only one reason for him to keep me at arms length and that is because he is afraid his love for me will make him hurt his family, who desperately want him to marry someone he doesn’t want to marry.
Angel numbers pulled me through when I was more or less left no option, then to set up this business and I had no f*cking clue what I was doing back then or if it was ever going to work. The Angel numbers kept giving me guidance and telling me it was going to be okay. It became more then okay, it became totally awesome magic.
The irony of it all is that I set up Gangsta Goddesses based on this ONE believe.
My very first act in trusting my own judgment, which has led to me already helping close to a hundred people heal their wounds from the past in less than 4 months time, was knowing without a doubt, no matter how shitty my twin was treating me – no matter what he said. I knew he loved me, even when he told me he didn’t love me the way I thought he did (or actually in the way he had told me before).
I was damn sure THEN, but as the months passed by I wasn’t so sure anymore. He seemed to have no problem, carrying on his life without me.
That one decision back then, was responsible for this whole new life I was living, including this new completely soul aligned business and my ability to channel the Gangsta Goddesses energy and the amazing healing work done with my clients in the Twin Flame Reunion Journeys.
Could I have been right about everything else after, but wrong about this very first test in trusting my own judgment?
That made no sense….
After a good cry I fell asleep and I woke up at exactly 2:22.
So I googled 222 and this is what it said:
Angel Number 222 tells you that everything will turn out for the best in the long-term. Do not put your energies into negativity – be aware that all is being worked out by spirit for the highest good of all involved.
Angel Number 222 is also reminding you to keep up the good work you are doing, as the evidence of your manifestations are coming to fruition.
Angel Number 222 is a message of faith and trust from your angels. Remember that nothing happens by chance and everything happens for a reason. Maintain a positive attitude and you will find that everything will have positive results and you will receive abundant blessings in Divine right timing.
I don’t think the angels could have given me a more spot on message to tell me to stop freaking out, just relax and trust that Spirit is working on our behalf. Apparently there is a reason why despite all the healing and clearing work that I had done, it wasn’t showing up yet but to keep faith cause something amazing (abundant blessings) will come when the time is right.
And that is the thing with faith, you have to believe in order to see.
“Faith is to believe what you do not yet see; the reward for this faith is to see what you believe.”
Signs are ALWAYS pre-indications of a reality not yet manifested. Signs always ask you to believe in something you haven’t seen yet. If it was already there, you wouldn’t need a sign would you?
Signs demand you take a leap in faith, if you want to see the manifestation you are hoping for.
In time ALL shall be revealed
Another couple of weeks passed. I’d text my twin, he would read what I had to say but wouldn’t respond. I tried everything I knew wouldn’t work (I’m not perfect either) with the only result that no matter how hard I pushed him, no matter how often I messaged him or told him to then just close the freaking door completely because this was useless…
He just read every message, didn’t answer and also didn’t block me.
So by that time I was thinking any guy who puts up with this is either insane or just loves me unconditionally.
My twin is hot as hell – he gets lots of female attention and action when he wants it. There is no reason for him to let me bombard him with messages and often long messages if it somehow was not important to him and apparently he wanted me to know he was keeping up with me, because the message read notification stayed on and kept saying message read.
Apparently he wanted me close, but was still afraid to really open the door completely because we WERE exactly where we left off, still both in love with each other and him having to defy his family in order for us to be together.
There was nothing I could say or do to help him here, this was something he needed to decide on his own so I just surrendered even deeper again and let go. I had already said all there is to say. I had already done all that could be done, I could only fall into repetition of the same things that had not worked anyway.
It had to be something energetic, that was keeping us in this status quo.
I had been working together with one of my favorite healers on releasing any blocks I had between me and Twin Flame union. This healer is a long time friend of my mom, who knows me since I was a little girl and I have been working with her these past 18 years. From my first divorce when my mom called her to come and she had to literally pull my soul back into my body – through all the years in between, including her having helped me birth Gangsta Goddesses – she has been there with me every step of my journey.
Now was our final session in a series of three that we had been working on whatever was still keeping me out of Twin Flame union with my twin and already the previous session had seemed to go astray as I connected to a past life in which I was a Lemurian priestess. My twin appeared to also be involved in that life but we couldn’t see how.
Although she had advised me before the session started to really let go of him, sometime intense soul relationships went like this she had said – she had to admit afterwards that she had felt his energy with us while we were working.
This final session we had some trouble getting in there, but once we were, the Lemurian priestess energy was back instantly and seeking integration. At the same time the healer felt my twin puling on my left side, almost keeping me out of the soul retrieval from the Lemurian lifetime – which was odd because up til now my twin’s higher self has always supported me in everything during healing sessions.
The healer tried everything she could to get insight or movement, but it was just like it was waiting there she said. My twin’s energy pulling me towards him, Indian colors and Indian music that became a little louder once and then went back to what it was.
She also said she was feeling his energy stronger and stronger each session. She didn’t know what to make of it, but said in any case that the retrieval of the soul part from Lemuria had to be done first. It had the highest priority.
Suddenly it all made sense to me. All the work I had done for me and my twin, did have effect. So much so, that it was ALL there waiting for me. But that I first had to embody this Lemurian priestess energy, which I had to do still single. I needed to be alone for this.
Indian colors, Indian music reminds me of Indian celebrations combined with my Twin – could mean marriage which was basically where we left off now nine months ago. When he told me that if it were up to him alone, we would already be together and have everything we dream of.
The message I got was that any energy going into worrying about my twin and our relationship was keeping me from integrating this Lemurian healing energy, so the Universe wanted me to know that it was there waiting for me and that in fact – This energetic Lemurian download was the ONLY thing still standing between me and our Twin Flame union, which was how this 3 series healing session started with my intention of clearing everything on MY side that was keeping us out of union.
Just like you reading this or maybe even more, I asked myself – Isn’t this just a matter of wishful thinking?
But then I said to myself, why would the Universe give you all these signs including when you wanted to finally walk away, all the signs the Universe knew were important to you and had made you go back in the past?
Why would your clients have massive results with their healing and clearing work and you only gained one inch?
It wouldn’t make sense.
This beautiful promise makes much more sense, that the work is done and that as soon as I have integrated this past life that also has massive healing gifts that I will be able to use again in this lifetime with the Gangsta Goddesses clients – that my twin and our union will be waiting there for me.
It is really scary releasing this article before it has manifested itself in the physical reality, but that is what it means to trust the signs.
To have faith that what was revealed, will be my reality.
It will feel scary for you too sometimes to work with signs, your rational mind will always try to keep you with both feet on the ground. The problem is that if you listen to the rational mind you will often stay in the same reality you are in now. It tends to keep you in the same old, same old.
If you really want the magical, miracle filled life – you need to have the guts to believe in the unseen, in the near to impossible and fairy-tale endings. Because that is how you open the door, to have them manifest in your reality.
If you listen to the rational mind, you have already shut the door on your dreams. You will never be able to manifest extraordinary realities – because the rational mind will tell you it’s impossible.
Once you buy into that, impossible becomes your reality.
What working with signs from the Universe can do for you
Asking and trusting the signs the Universe was giving me was another important part of my journey. It really helped first deepen my trust in the Universe, that it ALWAYS HAS MY BACK (2015), no matter what and later learning to also fully trust myself and my own judgment (2016).
That’s also my hope for you that working with the signs of the Universe will help you to learn that you can trust the Universe to ALWAYS have your back, no matter what and that it will help you to learn to trust YOUR own judgment.
Because you need both elements to fully live your life purpose and share your unique gift with the world, which will add to your happiness as you get to manifest perfect self-expression. But no matter how big a gift this is to yourself, it is nothing compared to the blessing you will be to the millions of people in the world who are desperately waiting for you to share the gift that ONLY YOU have to offer.
So do us all a favor and get on it!
Lots of love,